This Blog is Not Working!!!!!

When I started this I thought this would be a great way to express thoughts, frustrations, and pain that has accompanied living life.  I thought it would be a way to do it and nobody  would  know who I am.  Screw that - what I have learned is that from reading your blogs and your comments on my blog and other blogs that I feel you do know me  and that we are friends.  When you think about it, it is amazing that you can feel that you are friends with people you have never met and probably never will meet.  I find myself wanting to make sure that each of you are ok and nothing bad is happening.

Speaking of bad, I received one of those phone calls.  You know that kind that comes at 3:00 a.m. and you know it can't be good.  This lovely lady that I feel blessed  to call a friend had three children.  She lost her only daughter to lung cancer about two years ago. Last week she had called  to tell me that her  oldest son was in the hospital. He lives out  of town.  She went to see him.  I had a bad feeling about it but wanted so much to believe that he would be okay.  That 3:00 a.m. phone call was her telling me she had lost him.  She has been on my heart this whole time.  It is such a helpless feeling when you want so very much to "make it all better" for those we care about  and can't.  All  I can do is listen when she needs to talk and keep her in my prayers.

Just once before I die I want someone to call me at 3:00 a.m. and tell me something truly wonderful  has happened to them.  But maybe truly wonderful things don't happen late at night.  I just know it has to be possible.  Anything is possible isn't it?